Heylo, today wanted to meet up with GH. But then, Mir nvr msg, Mirah working/tired. *understand* Nas got takraw. Ziqah work, in the end, only me and Zirah meet and had some time together, though it is short. These days really bad things had happened. I pity for my sis-in-law, Ziqah and her forsaken fate. A bad incident happend to her last night and yet i still couldn't accept it. Why? Why must it end so abrupt? So swift and easy? Without a concrete reason why did you do it? I'm not going to hate you or blame you or anything else because i have no right to interfere your problems but why is it OVER?! Why now? why can't it be later? At least after the wedding??? I Had forseen this, that it would happen anytime but i didn't know that it must be now. Now we are just 5. Just 5. It feels so wrong, so different, almost inhuman. Gawsh, why must everything tumble down into disasters? One after the other? Isnt the problems that we are facing is enuff? Why must you add on? I always looked up to you for encouragement, the strength of my faith. I didn't know that someone so strong could finally give up in the end. We stand together right? I hope this is not the end. May god shine light upon all of us. See yah at the wedding.
